#Eva kovacs

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Crime Wave (1985)

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CRIME WAVE (1985):

Girl recalls a time

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Fanfiction: Ever Present Past - Niko Kovac (Chapter 11)

Author’s note: I hope you guys are still with me reading the story!

Full work can be found here and here.

Chapter 11

“What do you want?” Cecilia asked as soon as they got outside of the restaurant.

“I should ask you that, Cecilia.” Eva replied. “Are you here to cause trouble? Are you drunk?”

“I’m here because the man I’m in love with is inside and it doesn’t fucking matter if I’m drunk or not!” Cecilia started to raise her voice.

“It does fucking matter. It’s his party, you weren’t invited and I’m done with you.” Eva said, her blood boiling completely.

“I’m done with you! Who are you to steal him from me? I came here first!”

Eva snorted, nodding her head.

“I didn’t steal him from you, I met him when you were a little child! He used to be my boyfriend so I guess I came first.”

“I’m really surprised Niko prefers you over me.” Cecilia mocked and Eva snorted again, controlling her crescent anger. “I mean, really, look at me. Plus, I’m younger.”

“Well,” Eva began breathing deeply. “I find you really gorgeous indeed but I’m sorry to say that I really believe in my sex appeal and my personality. Niko choose me and I’m not going to fight with you because of that, really.”

“I’m not going to stop until he personally says he doesn’t want me.”

“Then I suggest you to stop.” Niko said and they both turned to see him standing there, hands in his pockets. “I’m sorry if I ever gave you the wrong impression, I’m usually very affectionate but I remember clearly telling you we had a casual relationship.”

“But I fell in love! I thought you could change your mind.” Cecilia’s face was sad and she was about to cry. Eva really felt pity for her.

“And I did but I didn’t want it to be with you. I’m so sorry Cecilia, really. I just don’t accept you saying those things to Eva.”

“How could you trade me for her?” Cecilia pointed to her body. Eva rolled her eyes and turned around so she could resist the urge to punch the girl. Relax Eva, it’s not right to fight with a woman because of a man.

“Cecilia, I’m in love with Eva.” Niko said simply and Eva turned again, this time looking straight at Cecilia.

“You are gorgeous and you’re going to find a man better than Niko. It’s not worthy to humiliate yourself because of a man.” Eva said truthfully. “I’m in love with him and I think he’s amazing but I don’t like the idea of a woman humiliating herself for him. Have some self-respect, some self-love.”

This time, Cecilia was really crying and nodding. She didn’t say a word after that and just left their company. Eva breathed heavily and looked at Niko, who was half relieved, half pissed. She wanted to cry as well. She felt self-conscious, felt as if her body was horrible and felt old for the first time in a while. They shared the silence for a while before Niko broke it.

“Eva, I…” he started but she raised a finger to shush him.

“We’ll talk about it when we arrived at your house.” Eva was fighting back the tears and Niko knew that because he looked apologetically at her.

“You’re…” He began saying but Eva nodded.

“I said we’ll talk about this at home…” Eva said once more, this time there was a tear rolling down her cheek. She didn’t want to hear it, she just wanted to enjoy – or try – the rest of the night.

“Okay.” Niko said, giving up the argument. Only for now.

They entered the restaurant again and spent most of the time apart chatting to other people and enjoying the meal the buffet served. The only time they were together was when it was brought Niko’s birthday cake with his photo on it. It was impossible not to laugh but even that was difficult to Eva. And Niko knew it.

He showed his photo on top of the cake to her and made a silly face. She giggled softly. Niko then cut his cake and gave her a slice.

“There’s a part of my face in it.” He said, laughing. “I never thought I would give you a part of my face to eat.”

Eva couldn’t help but laugh at his joke.

“And I never thought I would eat a part of your face.” Eva joked back and took a bite of the cake. That made her a little bit less grumpy but she was still pissed and hurt.

As soon as Eva got into Niko’s house, she went straight to the bath. She let the hot water run across her hair, then her back and her butt. For seconds, she was lost in thought when the image of tonight’s events came into her mind. Eva made an enormous effort to not cry but it was impossible, so she broke into tears.

She heard Niko knocking the door and remained quiet, as if she hadn’t heard him knocking. She just wanted to be left alone to sulk and cry, and maybe later feel like she could face whatever happened that night.

“Eva?” she heard his voice on the other side. He sounded so miserable. “Can I come in?”

She fought back a few tears before she could muster a proper answer. Eva didn’t want him to know she was crying.

“Erm, yes.” That was the only answer she could come up with.

Eva felt the cold air invade the room and braced herself against it. It didn’t last long enough since Niko sneaked quickly into the bathroom.

“Can I join you?” There was no hint of teasing in his voice or a subtle message in it. He was being genuine about only join in to take a bath. But Eva didn’t want him to see her red face.

“I’m already leaving.” She quickly finished her bath and curled up in the towel, leaving the stall and the bathroom without looking at him. He didn’t get the chance to reply before she was outside looking for her clothes.

Eva changed into her pajamas and crawled into bed before Niko left his bath. It would be better if she just went to sleep before he had the chance to properly talk to her. Tomorrow maybe she would be able to talk but tonight she wasn’t. She was already feeling ridiculous for the tears again pooling her eyes.

After a few minutes, Niko was in the bedroom again and Eva felt the weight of his body next to her in the bed. “I know you’re avoiding me.” He whispered.

“I’m not, Niko.” She answered simply.

“We need to talk.” Eva shifted uncomfortably but didn’t turn around to face him.

“I don’t want to.” She answered stubbornly.

“But we need. I’m sorry for all the things Cecilia said to you and if I could, I’d have never allowed her to ever try to hurt you.” He confessed, his voice barely a whisper.

That could have made Eva feel relaxed and willing to forget all about what happened but her blood boiled. That made her even angrier. She turned around to look at him.

“Are you fucking serious?” She sat down next to him, incredulous. “You had the motherfucking opportunity to talk to her way back when she kissed you at the airport. But nooo, you didn’t, did you? You just let that shit go.”

Niko had sat down as well, his eyebrows raised in surprise. He crossed his arms in front of his chest and Eva fought the urge to punch him in the face. “What? You think I’m wrong??” she asked angrily.

“Damn wrong. I didn’t think she was going to come back! I thought I had made myself clear when I said you were my girlfriend!” he tried to argue but Eva was having none of that.

“How comfortable. You could just have told her you weren’t interested, huh? Would that be too hard? No, it wouldn’t. I guess it’s pleasant for you, isn’t it? Having two women fighting for you. I bet you thought you were the shit when you started going out with her, after all, such a young model like her would be a great sugar baby for you, wouldn’t she? That’s why you can’t just say to her you aren’t interested? It would end your chances with her once you’re over with me. Why would you still be with me, right? I’m just older and I’m not up to your current status, am I? You put me over there to do your fucking dirty work with her and I’m not doing it anymore, Niko. I’m not here to mark a fucking territory or fight over for a man, I’m here to be desired and cared. Fuck.” She spit everything out, her heart beating so hard in her chest that it felt like a drum.

Niko looked so hurt that for a second Eva considered that she had done the wrong thing. He opened his mouth a few times and nothing came out of it. He finally swallowed and when he spoke, his voice was weak and his eyes filled with tears.

“Is that what you think about me? You think I’m looking for a woman to have as my trophy? That I will get rid of you once the time is right? Goddammit Eva, I thought you were more clever than that or knew me better. I’m hurt that you even think that I did all of this shit on purpose.”

“What about me? I was mocked because I’m not as young as I used to be and it was implied that I wasn’t worthy. It hurts, you know?” She began crying again and cursed herself for being weak like this. It didn’t matter, did it? She was already hurt. “I’m not as… confident as I used to be, I have my freckles and I have some white hair starting to grow in my head. My tits are not firm as they used to be and I’m just aging. It feels so fucking terrible to me and it doesn’t help that a young babe reminded me of that. Worse, reminded me that you’re far more handsome now that you’re older and that you can have any woman you want.”

“The only woman I want is standing right in front of me, with her freckles and some white hair in her head, her tits glorious as always. But if she thinks they need fixing, I’ll pay for her to make them look perfect as she wants. Eva, look at me.” His hands reached for her arms and turned her to face him completely. “I’m a prick and a fool, and I’m sorry for tonight. It hurts me to know you have these things in your mind when I can only think is how lucky I am to even have a chance with you again. You are right, I should have handled this and I’m going to do it tomorrow. I don’t want you to ever doubt of my feelings and how much you attract me. If there’s anything else you want me do to for you, please, I want to know.” He was pleading.

“I just want us to live without these kinds of dramas. I deserve that from life, from you.” Eva answered in a whisper, her anger dissipating.

“Your wish is an order, Eva.” Niko pulled her into a tight embrace, his fingers tangling in her hair, his nose buried in her neck smelling her scent. She hugged him back, clinging to his torso as if it was lifesaving. They stayed hugged for minutes until their hearts became calm, beating in a steady pace as if they were only one, until their breathing wasn’t heavy anymore, until Niko was sure that her perfume was all over him, until Eva was relaxed in his embrace.

They slowly adjusted themselves in bed cuddling. Niko kissed her neck slowly, almost lazily, and his free hand worked his wonders on her arm. His caresses were very good but Eva wasn’t going to give in yet.

“I’m not in the mood.” She whispered as his hand started to sneak inside her shirt. Niko immediately retrieved his hand and kissed her shoulder in apology.

“Alright.” He whispered against her skin. Niko kept spooning her until he listened to her heavy breath indicating she was asleep.

Eva woke up in the next morning with Niko’s soothing voice in her ear. “Love, wake up. It’s almost 10 am, I set up a meeting with Cecilia and I’m going to end our problems once and for all. Do you wanna come?”

It took a while for her to register his words on her mind. It seemed like her words last night hit him harder than she thought. She trusted him to handle this by himself and without cheating on her. That wasn’t the kind of man he was.

“No, there’s no need.” She replied, rubbing her eyes.

“Are you sure?” He insisted.

“Of course I am sure, I trust you.” Eva reassured him by kissing his hand lightly. Niko kissed her forehead in return and left the bedroom.

She tried to get back to sleep but to be fair, her mind couldn’t stop wondering what was Niko going to tell Cecilia and how long would that take. She should have gone with him in the end and hear his exact words to Cecilia. I’ll have to settle down with his version., she thought to herself before grabbing her phone to distract a little bit. 10:15. Eva marked the time to know how long it would take for him to come back.

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Eva had gone from the bedroom to the kitchen to fix something to eat when the front door opened and Niko stepped in. 11:15. She looked at the clock and sighed in relief to know he had handled everything quickly. The way she looked at the clock didn’t go unnoticed by him and he furrowed his eyebrows before hugging her from behind, resting his chin on her shoulder.

“I would never cheat on you.” Niko whispered and kissed her neck. Eva moaned lowly at the feel of his lips on her skin, so smooth and hot, and he turned her around to face him, his eyes hungry for her, begging for her forgiveness. “You apparently have no idea the kind of effect you have on me.”

“Sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t.” She confessed.

“I chose to be with you, Eva. If you hadn’t come back into my life, I would have stayed single so no, I wasn’t looking for a sugar baby. I wasn’t looking for someone at all but then, you appeared and look where we are.” Niko was still holding her with such an intense stare that she felt stripped. Not that she was complaining.

“I desire you, my sweet Eva.” And with that, Niko finally captured her lips with his own, his hands sneaking inside of her shirt to grab her breasts, slowly flicking his thumb over her nipples while his tongue persistently tried to gain control over her mouth. “There’s not a single part of your body that I don’t want to put my mouth on.” He whispered on her lips, barely kissing her.

Eva moaned and writhed against his body, feeling how hard his cock was inside of his trousers. She wasn’t going to touch him, though. This was about him giving her pleasure and she was going to enjoy every single part of it. She noticed his mouth had gone from her lips to the base of her neck and that his hands were travelling south after leaving her nipples hard.

He reached for the base of her pants and let one of his hands go inside, finding exactly where she was aching the most. Eva held herself against the kitchen counter when his fingers touched her sensitive nub and slid into her wetness. Niko used his free hand to grab her chin and turn her face to him.

“You like when I’m devoted to you, don’t you?” He asked, pushing one finger inside of her while his thumb massaged her clit. Eva couldn’t muster an answer right now, so distracted by the way his fingers where working on her wetness.

Niko pushed a second finger inside of her and tightened his grip on her chin. “Answer to me.”

“Y-yes.” This was everything Eva could come up with right now. Her hands were griping him so hard that her knuckles were becoming white.

“Oh yeah?” She heard him whisper again, this time not so close to her ear. “You get this wet by the thought of me being so in love with you?”

Eva only nodded, incapable of coming up with an answer that wasn’t a strangled moan. Everything was too much and suddenly, his hands were out of her pants. “Wait, what?” She asked in confusion.

“I need to taste you.” Niko explained, his hands on her waist again pushing her towards the living room. He guided her to his large sofa and started to strip her, going first for her shirt, then for her pants and her underwear. This wasn’t a slow and sexy sex, this was desperate, as if Niko couldn’t wait to possess her, and she very much liked to see him losing control, giving pleasure in a harsh way. His mouth reached her nipple, sucking urgently while his hand was again on her sex, slowly sliding up and down.

“Niko…” Eva moaned, incapable of being coherent. Niko changed his attention to her other nipple and moaned back against her skin when he listened to his name on her lips. He didn’t take long on them, sliding down until he reached her pussy, but kissing her thighs instead of going directly to her aching clit. This was all too much for Eva and she was writhing in the bed but he held her in place, spreading her legs.

At first, he just breathed into her cunt and that was enough to make her whimper. He lifted his head and looked at her, biting his mouth.

“Is this what you want?” Niko rubbed her with his index finger and she threw her head back. “I’m only saying this once, Eva, and I want you to pay close attention. Do you hear me?”

“Yes.” She managed to answer.

“There’s just one pussy I want and it’s right in front of me.” He licked his lips. “I wanna lick you until you have nothing else left and after that, I’m gonna claim you. I’m not making love to you today… Maybe later, but right now I’m going to fuck you. If I can’t convince you through romance how much you affect me, I’m going to show you through a good fuck.”

Eva trembled: without a doubt this was the Niko she wanted to have more often. She wanted him to fuck her until he couldn’t handle anymore. Eva felt a bit courageous and lifted her body enough to level her eyes with Niko.

“Then I’m giving you a present…” She pulled Niko against her and whispered on his ear. “I’m already using IUD so I bet you’ll be pleased to fuck me while feeling me properly. Is that what you’ve been waiting for? To feel my pussy around your cock?”

Eva heard Niko whispering “shit” while she laid down again. She took a moment to appreciate the man in front of her: if he was aroused before, now she knew for sure he was going to lose control again. His lips were swollen and moistened, and he seemed to be analyzing what he was going to do to her because his eyes were roaming her naked body.

“You know you’re a damn sexy woman, don’t you?” his hands caressed her thighs sensually. “I’m a very lucky man.” Niko resumed his kissing on her thighs and slide his tongue until he was at her cunt, licking her lightly.

Eva hissed at the feeling of his tongue touching her most sensitive part, licking and kissing. Oh boy, he was fucking good. He knew exactly where to suck, where to apply more pressure, where to ease the pressure and just go slowly, lightly. He didn’t used to be that good but practice can lead you to perfection and although she was a bit jealous, she was more pleased that he was using his skills on her.

Niko inserted two fingers at once and Eva swore, her body reacting to the sudden intrusion. Her muscles contracted around his fingers and he pushed forward, thrusting slowly. She started moving with the rhythm of his thrusting, her arousal soaking his fingers and his hand. His mouth kept its pace on her clit, sucking hard enough to make her whine with pleasure. Eva could almost grab her climax, she was so damn close it hurt.

“Fuck!” Eva moaned, griping his shoulders. “Make me come, Niko. I need it!” She let go off his shoulders and laid down again, her body moving without her even realizing.

Niko chuckled against her delicate nub and the vibration almost sent her off. Almost. That was killing her and he knew it, he was enjoying it. Then Niko removed his mouth from her pussy and she protested but he held her in place before she could move. One of his hands went back to her cunt and kept stroking her lightly.

“You want to come? You’ll have to beg.” He teased and Eva couldn’t help but groan in frustration.

“Ugh, I hate you.” She moaned and clenched her fists. She wanted to pull his hair to punish him for being such a fucking tease. Niko chuckled at her and started to remove his hand from her wet pussy. “No!” She protested. “Please, mr. Kovac.”

“You just know how to tease me, huh?” This time Niko touched her vigorously, just the way he knew she was going to cum. His index finger found her clit and circulated it, making her almost scream. It didn’t take her long to cum, her body tensing before release hit her had enough to make her pant. He kept rubbing her through her climax, his mouth hanging open while he watched her convulse and take her to that blissful journey.

Niko started to take off his clothes and watched her try to catch her breath. God, the sight of him taking off his clothes, his muscles tensing each time he removed a piece, his cock hard against his boxer briefs, was just something breathtaking. She tried to touch his cock but he caught her hands midway and laid her down again. Eva raised her eyebrow questioningly.

“This is about making you feel worshipped. I want to claim you today and show you that I mean everything I said.” He lowered himself on her and kissed her lips slowly, sensually, pressing her against the couch. The tip of his cock brushed against her wet entrance and he groaned, looking down between them.

Niko took himself in his hand and slid up and down his manhood on her slicky folds, his pace steady and meant to make her even more prepared to take him in. He bit her neck and stifled a groan when he noticed she had gotten even wetter. Eva had started to move with him, trying to move her hips enough so he could enter her already but Niko was surprisingly contained, almost unaffected. She knew better though.

“Fuck me, Niko.” She whispered on his ear. “Go on, already. Take me, claim me. I need you.” She then bit his earlobe. With a quick move, Niko angled his hips and thrust inside of her, making both of them gasp in pleasure.

“Fuck.” Niko groaned against the skin of her shoulder, biting her hard enough to leave a mark. “So damn tight.” He started moving, deep and hard, his movement eased by the slickness of her arousal.

Eva gripped his hair and pulled him for a bruising kiss, her tongue finding his and slowly teasing him into a game of dominance. Niko bit her lower lip and picked his pace, burying himself even deeper and fucking her hard. Eva pushed him up and placed one of her legs on his shoulder, changing completely the angle of his thrusts.

“You are going to be the death of me, Eva.” Niko hissed, one of his hands holding her thigh in place and the other one holding her hips to push her against him. “There’s nothing I adore more than fucking your sweet tight cunt. Especially now…” he trailed off and looked at where they were joining, his cock slicky with her fluids. This was so sexy and Eva felt her need to come slowly rising while he roughly fucked her.

Her hands grabbed his hand from her hips and moved to her sensitive nub, and he took the hint, rubbing her just the way she liked, eliciting a loud moan from her. Niko changed the angle again, standing more erect and his other hand on her leg found her nipple, pinching it. Eva pushed against him at the sensation his ministrations gave her, biting her lower lip.

“Niko…” She whispered sensually. “I want to come on your cock. Make me come.” She knew she had hit a nerve because he closed his eyes and screwed his face, holding her tightly while he slammed his hips against her. The sound of skin against skin, the way he moved inside of her, her wetness, the sounds of pleasure he made, the way his hands moved on her clit and on her nipple, all of that was too much for Eva and she gripped the edge of the couch while she reached her peak. Niko moaned at the feeling of her squeezing his cock while she rode out of her climax and couldn’t help but pick his pace, slamming himself hard against her. He fucked her fast enough to move the couch from one place to another and Eva fucking loved that side of Niko.

He put both of her legs on his shoulders, putting a bit of his weight on the back of her thighs, going deeper. Eva’s eyes widened at the new sensation, the way she could feel him fill her in a way she didn’t think she need it. Oh boy, but how she needed it. She felt whole and desired while he was buried deep in her.

Eva stared at him while he kept his pace, chasing his own release, a release she wanted so much to see, to feel. She squeezed his cock with her cunt and watched as he started to find his own climax, his mouth hanging open while his eyes obsessively held her gaze. He shot his hot seed inside of her and she held him tightly, taking in all of his pleasure. Niko was reduced to a spasming, sweaty body, his eyes shut.

After his body calmed down and his cock softened, Eva wrapped her legs around him, caressing his sweaty hair, soothing him until his breath was normal. Niko raised his head to look at her and gave her a warm smile.

“I usually don’t mind using a condom to have sex but…” He signed, intensely looking at her. “I don’t want to have you with a condom ever again. You’re just too delicious and I want to feel you more often.”

Eva snorted at his comment and kissed his forehead. “If that’s what you wish…” She couldn’t deny that, after all, the feeling of him bare for her was something difficult not to love. There was a feeling of peace growing inside of her chest and she signed happily while he rested his head on her breasts, hearing her heartbeat.

Robert and Niko were very close to their family, so it was only a matter of time until Eva reunited with their parents. They had set up a lunch at Robbie’s house and Eva arrived with Niko and Lara a few hours earlier to help fix everything. As soon as they entered the house, greeted by Anica, Eva heard someone approaching her and was surprised to see Niko’s mother, Ivka, someone difficult to forget. The woman was very difficult to handle at first but she had a tender heart and she seemed fond of Eva.

“I never thought I would see you again.” The older woman said, holding both of Eva’s arms. She could sense Niko behind her, a little tense.

“I could say I thought the same.” Eva answered, nervous. There was a second of apprehension as the older Kovac looked at her, as if analyzing. Then, she broke into a big grin and pulled Eva into an embrace.

“It’s good to see you again.” She said to Eva, who was trying to hug her despite the weight difference. Ivka was a very short woman and was very old by now.

“Well, hello to you too, mother!” Eva heard Niko protesting, faking a pout. She couldn’t help but smile as she saw the matriarch holding her older son, checking if he was okay and healthy. From the door next to them, she saw a head popping and recognized Robert.

“Oh, Eva! Can you help me with the chairs?”

“Sure!” Eva followed Robert into the backyard where there was a spot that Robert pointed as the place to organize the table and the chairs. They started picking the table together when Robert started talking.

“You know, I’ve never seen Niko this happy in a long time. He’s glowing.”

Eva stopped a bit and smiled at the piece of information she just received from his brother.

“It’s very much welcomed after everything that happened with the divorce.” Robert went on, trying to make this conversation as casual as possible.

“’Everything that happened?’” Eva questioned, her eyebrows raised. What was he talking about? “I thought the divorce was consensual.”

“Oh, the divorce was consensual. The reason behind it… not so much.”

They finished placing the table at a place where they wouldn’t be bothered by the sun and that let them enough space to walk. Eva wasn’t going to drop the subject.

“Niko told me the sex became…” She searched for a word. “Boring.”

Robbie let out a bitter laugh. “That’s what he told you? Eva, he’s ashamed of the reason and I find it pathetic that he didn’t share it with you.”

“Robert, spit it out already.” She was growing impatient.

“Katarina cheated on him. Niko one day walked into her kissing her lover, a gym instructor, after months of suspecting something was off. They decided to preserve their peace because of Lara, she doesn’t know what happened and they would kill you and I if that meant they would keep the secret from Lara.”

Eva was just flabbergasted at the information. She didn’t know what to answer and honestly, didn’t know even if she wanted to say something. Her mind went racing to everything he had said about his marriage and was a little hurt to come to conclusion that Niko was still too proud to tell her everything, to share his pain. He acted like he lived a fairy tale with Katarina, even if they were divorced. Robert saved her the trouble to find her words as he kept on talking.

“Don’t get me wrong, I don’t hate Katarina but I want her to stay away from him. Enough is enough.” He punctuated his words with the chairs he was placing around the table. “And I’m happy you’re here. I thought that he had lost his faith in relationship and that he was only going to live with one-night stands. God, Eva, I just hated to see him flirting.” He snorted. “He’s good at it but it made me cringe to watch him go all Casanova. I prefer him with you.”

She didn’t know what to answer and Robert didn’t seem he was expecting one anyway because he didn’t wait for her to say anything. He seemed to me letting things go off from his chest and telling her things he thought she needed to know. She would have never thought of Niko, of all people, to be cheated on. Suddenly she felt the urge to hug him, take him into his arms and tell him she’s never going to do something like that, that even if she was afraid of saying, she loved him, and that his feelings were safe with her. But she couldn’t say those things to him, right? Because love is an unpredictable thing. The only thing she could promise was that she was never going to hurt him that way.

“Are you okay?” Robbie touched her arm, taking her back to reality.

“Yes, I’m just….” She started saying but trailed off.

“I know, it’s in your eyes. That’s why I love the both of you together, I don’t think either of you have any idea of the connection you have.”

“I just think he doesn’t deserve to be treated that way and I would never do something like that.” Eva reasoned, trying to hide how much that affected her.

Robert hugged her tightly and right there she knew that he knew she wouldn’t hurt him that way. She had done wrong with him before by pushing him away without an explanation but that was hardly like what Katarina did. If Eva was honest, she had felt a little threatened by the existence of a good relationship between Niko and his ex-wife but she knew they had a daughter and that it was important for them to maintain a level of respect, so she never gave much thought about that and slowly she felt relaxed about it.

Eva felt oddly at home with Niko’s family. They weren’t perfect but they held a level of complicity that she found endearing and she secretly wished her own family was like that. Her father always tried to emotionally fill the gaps her mother left but he was only one, he couldn’t do a job that required the whole family. She had an aunt from her mother’s side but they barely talked to each other. Besides that, she didn’t have a solid family background.

There, sitting at their table and watching as the parents praised their children and their grandsons, Eva felt as if maybe one day she could belong to them as well. If maybe she could call herself half Kovac, half Strauss. And then she remembered again that Katarina had cheated on Niko and wondered if perhaps he had lost his faith in love, in marriage.

Nonsense. If he had, he wouldn’t jump into a relationship with me.

She found his eyes and he smiled fondly at her, squeezing her hand underneath the table. He mouthed something to her and she only understood when she read his lips, “Are you okay?”

“Yes, I am.” She mouthed back, taking a sip from her wine. He gave her another reassuring squeeze and went back to give his attention to Anica, who was telling a tale from her modelling days. Eva was hugely fond of the woman and always admired how she kept her beautiful posture, even after she retired.

Eva didn’t realize she was so quiet before Anica gave her a toothy grin. “You are oddly quiet today, Eva.” The woman said playfully.

“Sorry, work is troubling my mind today.” Eva lied and offered a small smile. “I’m quite tired as well.”

“Did you know Eva is a lawyer?” Niko said to his parents. “She graduated in NY and worked in Wall Street.”

“Oh really?” Mateo, Niko’s father, said. “I always thought you were going to do something else. And how did that happen?”

“Well, one day I looked at myself in the mirror and I was unhappy with my profession. I’ve always wanted to study Law and there I went.” She explained.

“I guess it must quite impress people when they see such a beautiful woman being so competent.” Anica stated.

Eva gave her a light chuckle. “Only in the beginning. As I kept growing in my profession, I got a reputation. Good for some things and bad for others.”

“Oh?” Anica raised her eyebrows.

“I was known to be a “courtroom steamroller”. If I set foot on the courtroom, people knew I had already won the case. Good because people were afraid of me. Bad because people were afraid of me.” She explained and saw Robert’s impressed expression.

“That type of description just sound like you.” Ivka said, her voice a bit loud. “Your expressions are quite… hardened.”

“It comes with the job.”

“That’s the type of woman my son should marry.” Ivka raised her glass and didn’t offer any kind of explanation.

Everybody remained quiet and Eva realized they were expecting her give an answer but she wouldn’t. Instead, she smiled at the woman, trying to put all of her expectations into it. She wondered if Niko’s mother could see how much she wanted to marry Niko. He, on the other hand, seemed a bit uncomfortable.

“Well mother, I hope you don’t get ahead of me on that. I’d like to be the one to propose.” He chuckled and everybody followed him, including Eva.

Later that night, Niko hugged her while she brushed her teeth.

“I’m sorry about what my mother said of us marrying. She adores you and she’s just... eager.”

Eva spit the tooth paste from her mouth and looked at him through the mirror. “No problem, you know it. People seem eager than us to make a step forward.”

“I’m a bit eager, you know it. But I respect your decisions and if going slowly makes you feel comfortable, then I’m on board.”

“I know. Just… I want you to be honest about you and your relationship with Katarina.”

“That’s why you were so quiet during lunch?” His eyes were fixed on her, his right hand toying with her hair.

“Yes.” She answered simply.

“Robbie.” He said. He knew she knew.

“Yes. But I want you to tell me and we are only talking about that when you fell you can.” She washed her mouth and turned to face him. His eyes held a hesitation mixed with hurt and she didn’t want to push him, push him away from her grasp. Slowly Eva reached for him, touching his lips with her own tentatively.

She deepened the kiss and felt him pressing her against the sink, his hands on her neck. Eva broke the kiss and held his intense gaze. Before she could say anything, he whispered, “Thank you.”

They went to bed and Niko curled next to her, his head resting on her chest. She caressed his hair lovingly, sometimes placing a kiss to his forehead. Eva loved hearing him purr while she took care of him when he needed, even if they didn’t speak a word of what happened. And then, an urge came into her chest to tell him her true feelings. Fuck if they were reconnecting, fuck everything.

“Niko?” She called to see if he was still awake.

“Uh?” Eva heard him grunt against her chest.

“I’m saying this and you won’t hear me saying anytime soon.” She took her time to see if her words sank into him before she spoke again, “I love you, Niko.”

Niko raised his head to look at her, his eyes wide in surprise. She could feel his heart hammering against her body and she wondered if he was trying to figure out if she was lying or joking. If he had thought about it, he quickly dismissed for he reached to kiss her passionately.

“I love you too, Eva.” He answered while his hands were sneaking into her shirt.

He removed it and wrapped his lips around one of her nipples. Eva refrained a moan from escaping her lips, suddenly aware that Lara’s room was just on the other side of the corridor. Niko’s hands travelled south and removed her pants, sneaking inside of her underwear to rub her sensitive folds.

If Eva ever had any kind of doubt about his feelings for her or if he had lost faith in relationships, it was all erased as soon as he filled her with his cock, burying himself into her core. He held her tightly, her back pressed against his chest while one hand cupped her breast and the other one guided her hips to him, imposing a sexy rhythm to their lovemaking. He didn’t go fast that night, he took his time with her, cheek pressed against her shoulder, smelling her perfume and taking in all of her.

“I could be buried inside of you forever.” He groaned on her nape, kissing her. Eva chuckled softly, trying not to kill the mood. She would happily let him bury himself into her forever.

With one of his hands playing with her nipple and the other caressing her clit, Eva couldn’t hold her climax for too long, convulsing around his cock. He made her come 3 times and on the third time, Niko succumbed to his own needs, pumping into her to release all of his pleasure.

They didn’t move much after the sex, only adjusting to a more comfortable spooning under the blankets. Eva slept feeling like her body had turned into jelly, her muscles tired from the force of her orgasms, and honestly it had been quite a long time since she slept like that.

[ben-mendelsohn-trash]

[kwebtv]

Snowy  -  Nine Network  -  September 8, 1993  -  November 11, 1993

Drama / Thriller  (13 episodes)

Running Time:  60 minutes

Stars:

Rebecca Gibney as Lilian Anderson

Neil Melville as Jack Logan

Lucy Bell as Kate Logan

Bernard Curry as Michael Logan

Catherine Wilkin as Molly Logan

Jochen Horst as Wolfie Heimer

Annie Jones as Eva Kovac

William McInnes as Max Heimer

Charlie Powles as Bernie O'Donnell

Bill Kerr as Stuart McLachlan

[figureskatingfanblog]

2020-21 Program Music Choices

Pairs

Kirsten Moore-Towers / Michael Marinaro (CAN) will be reusing their 2019-2020 free skate.

Audrey Lu / Misha Mitrofanov (USA) - FS: “Ancient Lands” by Roman Hardiman

Daria Pavlichenko / Denis Khodykin (RUS) - FS: "The Black Swan" soundtrack, Choroegraphy by Alexander Zhulin.

Alina Pepeleva & Roman Pleshkov (RUS) - SP: "Io Ci Saro" by Andrea Bocelli (debuted at Russian Cup Final); They will be reusing their free program from the previous season.

Katie McBeath/Nathan Bartholomay (USA) - FS: "The Blower’s Daughter" performed by Christina Aguilera & Chris Mann, Choreography by Cindy Stuart

Men

Vincent Zhou (USA) will be reusing his 2018-2019 free skate.

Yaroslav Paniot (USA) will be reusing his 2020-2021 free skate.

Keiji Tanaka (JPN) - SP: BGM "11170 CH edition 0706" Shin Evangelion Theatrical Version

Mark Kondratiuk (RUS) - SP: Jesus Christ Superstar

Lucas Tsyuoshi Honda (JPN) - FS: "Blues for Klook" by Eddy Louiss / "The Prophet" by Gary Moore. He will be reusing his his 2020-2021 short program.

Vladimir Litvinsev (AZE) - SP: Rachmaninoff's Prelude in C-sharp minor ("Bells of Moscow"), Choreography by Sergei Rozanov

Koshiro Shimada (JPN) - SP: “Giving Up” by Donny Hathaway; FP- Charlie Chaplin Medley (including “Limelight” and “Smile”); Both with choreography by Stephane Lambiel

Sihyeong Lee (KOR) -  SP: Polovtsian Dances from ‘Prince Igor’; Choreography by Yeaji Shin

Matthew Markell (CAN) - SP: “Per Te” by Josh Groban. He is doing his own choreography. 

Roman Sadovsky (CAN) - FS: “Chasing Cars” by Snow Patrol, Arranged by Maxine Rodriguez, Choreography by Mark Pillay

Conrad Orzel (CAN) - FS: “Who Wants to Live Forever” by Queen, Choreography by Jeffrey Buttle

Nikolaj Majorov (SWE) - SP: “Sound of Silence” by Disturbed; FP is to a martial arts theme.

Alexei Erokhov (RUS) - SP: "Fallin' " by Alicia Keys, performed by Nicola Cavallaro

Adam Siao Him Fa (FRA) - FP: Daft Punk Medley

Leonid Sviridenko (RUS) - SP: "Sturm I: Fear" by Dardust

Ilya Yablokov (RUS) - FS: "Walk Away" by Maxime Rodriguez and Xavier Mortimer

Eric Sjoberg (USA) - FS: Interstellar Soundtrack, Choreography by Misha Ge

Artur Danielian (RUS) - FS: Scheherazade

Nam Nguyen (CAN) will be reusing his free from the 2020-2021 season.

Ice Dance

Eva Pate / Logan Bye (USA) - FD: The Hunger Games Soundtrack

Charlene Guignard / Marco Fabbri (ITA), Natalia Kaliszek / Maskim Spodyriev (POL) and Elizaveta Shanaeva / Devid Naryzhnyy (RUS) will be reusing their 2020-2021 free dances.

Molly Lanaghan / Dmitre Razgulajevs (CAN) - RD: “Spice Girls”; FD: Tango

Loïcia Demougeot & Théo Le Mercier (FRA) FD: "Lonlon (Ravel’s Bolero)" by Angelique Kidjo, Coreography by Benoit Richaud

Ladies

Anastasia Arkipova (UKR) - SP: “Entre tu amor”

Ayaka Hosoda (JPN) - SP: "Leyenda" (Flamenco); Choreography by Misha Ge

Yeonjeong Park (KOR) - SP: Ballade No.by Chopin, Coregraphy by David Wilson; FP: Hymne A L'amour, Coregraphy by Pasquale Camerlengo

Starr Andrews (USA) - SP: “At Last” by Etta James; FP: “Bigger” / “At Last” by Beyonce; Both with Choreography by Derrick Delmore

Violeta Ushakova (USA) - FP: “Circles”, Coreography by Olga Ganicheva

Amber Glenn - FP: “Rain In Your Black Eyes”  Ezio Bosso, Remixed & Choreographed by Misha Ge

Rika Kihira will be reusing her short program from the 2020-2021 season.

Anastasia Guliakova (RUS) - FS:  "Don't Say You Do" / "Real Boy" by Lola Blanc, Coreography by Tatiana Prokofieva

Audrey Shin (USA)  FS: Moonlight Sonata by Beethoven, Choreography by Drew Meekins

Madeline Schizas (CAN) - SP: "My Sweet and Tender Beast" waltz (female vocal version) by Eugen Doga, Coreography by Asher Hill

Alexandra Feigin (BUL) - SP: Charlie Chaplin; FP: Firebird; Coreography by Nikita Mikhailov

Ekaterina Ryabova (AZE) is keeping her short program from the previous season.

Mia Kalin (USA) - SP: "Waltz of the Flowers" from The Nutcracker by Pyotr Tchaikovsky

Stanislava Konstantinova (RUS) - FS: My Love, The Devil You Know by Kovacs; "Take The Lead Tango" by Bonnie Greenburg

Alexia Paganini (SUI) - SP: "La Cumparsita" by Gerardo Matos Rodriguez and Gerardo Matos Rodriguez

Mariah Bell (USA) - SP: Music from Chromatica by Lady Gaga, Choreography by Cordero Zuckerman; FP: Both Sides Now by Joni Mitchell, Choreography by Shae-Lynn Bourne

Karen Chen (USA) is keeping her free program from last season.

Eliska Brezinova (CZE) -  SP: "Sweet Dreams" by Eurythmics, Coreography by Misha Ge

Shan Lin (Ashley Lin) CHN - FS: "Papa Can You Hear Me?" performed by Barbra Streisand, Choreography by Lori Nichol

[diario-de-una-fantasia]

El embarazo en las series norteamericanas

Desde hace un tiempo hemos estado viendo ER: urgencias con mi familia (sí, la serie de los 90). Es asombroso darse cuenta de que la agenda posmodernista estaba permeando en la sociedad desde hace mucho tiempo (porque aunque solo fue hace 20 años, esto no es de los 90, es anterior). En el capítulo 11 de la 12° temporada trata sobre cómo manejar un embarazo y el hilo conductor es el embarazo de Abby. Sinceramente, tuve que quitarme de enfrente de la televisión porque es asqueroso.

Lo mostraron como un problema (y siempre lo hacen así en la serie), como una cosa que se puede desechar si no se quiere. Además, al parecer la única que puede decidir sobre la vida del bebé es la madre, el padre se hace a un lado (la última vez que supe, una mujer no se puede autofecundar) y nadie defiende al ser humano que aún no tiene voz. Aunque sí mostraban los argumentos cristianos, la realidad es que siempre los retratan de retrógrados. Como si matar a un ser humano inocente solo porque existe el mal en el mundo sea, no solo justificable, sino bueno. (Lo menciono porque una de las pacientes es una adolescente de familia católica que estaba en una fiesta y la violaron, quedando embarazada. Además, el único doctor católico, Kovac [que, dicho sea de paso, perdió la fe hace años], tenía que ser zarandeado por la doctora joven, inteligente, independiente y progresista para, posteriormente, dejar de lado cualquier resquicio que le quedara de su crianza católica para proponerle un aborto a la paciente).

En primer lugar, la violación es un acto horrible, eso es un hecho, y requiere un justo castigo. Pero nada justifica asesinar a un bebé inocente. Un mal no se soluciona con otro mal. Si manejamos las afrentas que nos hacen con la ley del «ojo por ojo», lo único que lograremos es quedar todos ciegos. Al contrario, Nuestro Señor nos enseña que devolvamos bien por mal. Si algo es indudablemente bueno es el sacrificio de criar a un bebé para que crezca y se convierta en un buen cristiano que adore con todo su ser a Dios.

Siempre recordemos que no existen los bebés no deseados. Incluso si nuestros padres no nos hubieran planeado ni querido, hay alguien que sí: Dios Uno y Trino sí nos amó desde toda la eternidad incluso con la desobediencia de nuestros primeros padres, Adán y Eva. Como el Padre Fernando Rivero mencionó en una homilía «Dios hace salir el Sol sobre buenos y también sobre malos» (Sermón: I Domingo de Cuaresma).

Por último les comparto un fragmento de la oración de la noche del devocionario de la Fraternidad Sacerdotal San Pío X:

¿Cómo podré agradeceros, oh Dios mío, todos los beneficios que de Vos he recibido? Habéis pensado en mí desde toda la eternidad, me habéis sacado de la nada, habéis dado vuestra vida para redimirme, y día tras día seguís colmándome de infinidad de favores.

[finestmeatandseafood]

For those who live in New Jersey and those who visit . . . .

New Jersey is a peninsula.

Highlands, New Jersey has the highest elevation along the entire eastern seaboard, from Maine to Florida.

New Jersey is the only state where all of its counties are classified as metropolitan areas.

New Jersey has more race horses than Kentucky.

New Jersey has more Cubans in Union City (1 sq. mi.) than Havana, Cuba.

New Jersey has the densest system of highways and railroads in the US.

New Jersey has the highest cost of living.

New Jersey has the highest cost of auto insurance.

New Jersey has the highest property taxes in the nation.

New Jersey has the most diners in the world and is sometimes referred to as the "Diner Capital of the World."

New Jersey is home to the original Mystery Pork Parts Club (not Spam): Taylor Ham or Pork Roll.

Home to the less mysterious but the best Italian hot dogs and Italian sausage w/peppers and onions.

North Jersey has the most shopping malls in one area in the world, with seven major shopping malls in a 25 square mile radius.

The Passaic River was the site of the first submarine ride

by inventor John P. Holland .

New Jersey has 50+ resort cities & towns; some of the nation's most famous: Asbury Park, Wildwood, Atlantic City, Seaside Heights, Cape May.

New Jersey has the most stringent testing along its coastline for water quality control than any other seaboard state in the entire country.

New Jersey is a leading technology & industrial state and is the largest chemical producing state in the nation when you include pharmaceuticals.

Jersey tomatoes are known the world over as being the best you can buy.

New Jersey is the world leader in blueberry and cranberry production (and here you thought Massachusetts?)

Here's to New Jersey - the toast of the country! In 1642, the first brewery in America, opened in Hoboken.

New Jersey rocks! The famous Les Paul invented the first solid body electric guitar in Mahwah, in 1940.

New Jersey is a major seaport state with the largest seaport in the US, located in Elizabeth. Nearly 80 percent of what our nation imports comes through Elizabeth Seaport first.

New Jersey is home to one of the nation's busiest airports (in Newark), Liberty International.

George Washington slept there.

Several important Revolutionary War battles were fought on New Jersey soil, led by General George Washington.

The light bulb, phonograph (record player), and motion picture projector, were invented by Thomas Edison in his Menlo Park, NJ, laboratory

Jersey also boasts the first town lit by incandescent bulbs.

The first seaplane was built in Keyport , NJ.

The first airmail (to Chicago) was started from Keyport, NJ.

The first phonograph records were made in Camden, NJ

New Jersey was home to the Miss America Pageant held in Atlantic City.

The game Monopoly, played all over the world, named the streets on its playing board after the actual streets in Atlantic City. And, Atlantic City has the longest boardwalk in the world, not to mention salt water taffy. ( Now made in Pennsylvania)..

New Jersey has the largest petroleum containment area outside of the Middle East countries.

The first Indian reservation was in New Jersey, in the Watchung Mountains

New Jersey has the tallest water-tower in the world.

(Union, NJ!!!)

New Jersey had the first medical center, in Jersey City

The Pulaski Sky Way, from Jersey City to Newark, was the first skyway highway.

New Jersey built the first tunnel under a river, the Hudson (Holland Tunnel).

The first baseball game was played in Hoboken, NJ, which is also the birthplace of Frank Sinatra.

The first intercollegiate football game was played in New Brunswick in 1889 (Rutgers College played Princeton).

The first drive-in movie theater was opened in Camden, NJ, (but they're all gone now!).

New Jersey is home to both of "NEW YORK'S" pro football teams!

The first radio station and broadcast was in Paterson, NJ.

The first FM radio broadcast was made from Alpine, NJ, by Maj. Thomas Armstrong.

All New Jersey natives: Sal Martorano, Jack Nicholson, Bruce

Springsteen, Bon Jovi, Jason Alexander, Queen Latifah, Susan Sarandon, Connie Francis, Shaq, Judy Blume, Aaron Burr, Joan Robertson, Ken Kross, Dionne Warwick, Sarah Vaughn, Budd Abbott, Lou Costello, Alan Ginsberg, Norman Mailer, Marilynn McCoo, Flip Wilson, Alexander Hamilton, Zack Braff Whitney Houston, Eddie Money, Linda McElroy, Eileen Donnelly,

Grover Cleveland, Woodrow Wilson, Walt Whitman, Jerry Lewis, Tom Cruise, Joyce Kilmer, Bruce Willis, Caesar Romero, Lauryn Hill, Ice-T, Nick Adams, Nathan Lane, Sandra Dee, Danny DeVito, Richard Conti, Joe Pesci, Joe Piscopo, Joe DePasquale, Robert Blake, John Forsythe, Meryl Streep, Loretta Swit, Norman Lloyd, Paul Simon, Jerry Herman, Gorden McCrae, Kevin Spacey, John Travolta, Phyllis Newman, Anne Morrow Lindbergh, Eva Marie Saint, Elisabeth Shue, Zebulon Pike, James Fennimore Cooper, Admiral Wm.Halsey,Jr.,Norman Schwarzkopf, Dave Thomas (Wendy's), William Carlos Williams, Ray Liotta, Robert Wuhl, Bob Reyers, Paul Robeson, Ernie Kovacs, Joseph Macchia, Kelly Ripa, and Francis Albert Sinatra and "Uncle Floyd" Vivino.

The Great Falls in Paterson, on the Passaic River, is the 2nd highest waterfall on the East Coast of the US.

You know you're from Jersey when . . . .

You don't think of fruit when people mention "The Oranges."

You know that it's called Great Adventure, not Six Flags.

A good, quick breakfast is a hard roll with butter.

You've known the way to Seaside Heights since you were seven.

You know that the state isn't one big oil refinery.

At least three people in your family still love Bruce Springsteen, and you know the town Jon Bon Jovi is from.

You know what a "jug handle" is.

You know that WaWa is a convenience store.

You know that the state isn't all farmland.

You know that there are no "beaches" in New Jersey--there's the shore--and you don't go "to the shore," you go "down the shore." And when you are there, you're not "at the shore"; you are "down the shore."

You know how to properly negotiate a circle.

You knew that the last sentence had to do with driving.

You know that this is the only "New" state that doesn't require "New" to identify it (try . . Mexico . . . York ..! . . Hampshire-- doesn't work, does it?).

You know that a "White Castle" is the name of BOTH a fast food chain AND a fast food sandwich.

You consider putting mayo on a corned beef sandwich a sacrilege.

You don't think "What exit?" is very funny.

You know that people from the 609 area code are "a little different." Yes they are!

You know that no respectable New Jerseyan goes to Princeton--that's for out-of-staters.

You live within 20 minutes of at least three different malls.

You refer to all highways and interstates by their numbers.

Every year you have at least one kid in your class named Tony.

You know the location of every clip shown in the Sopranos opening credits.

You've gotten on the wrong highway trying to get out of the mall.

You know that people from North Jersey go to Seaside Heights, and people from Central Jersey go to LBI, and people from South Jersey go to Wildwood.

It can be no other way.

You weren't raised in New Jersey--you were raised in either North Jersey, Central Jersey or South Jersey.

You don't consider Camden to actually be part of the state

You remember the stores Korvette's, Two Guys, Rickel's, Channel, Bamberger's and Orbach's.

You also remember Palisades Amusement Park.

You've had a boardwalk cheese steak and vinegar fries.

You start planning for Memorial Day weekend in February.

And finally . .

You've NEVER, NEVER NEVER, EVER pumped your own gas.

(Copied from a friend)

[geyikligece]

tag game: put your favorite playlist on shuffle and list the first 10 songs that play!

tagged by my lovely fairy @justasphosphenes 🧚‍♀️

les temps est bon/ isabelle pierre

que je sois un ange/ nana mouskouri

aşk bu değil/ birsen tezer

gnossiennes: no. 1/ erik satie

โคตรพิเศษ / billkin

farewell shalabiye/ no blues

une belle historie/ eva sur seine

my love/ kovacs

siempre me quedará/ bebe

hurt/ johnny cash

i'm gonna tag only one person: @aheartandashirt <3

[misslacito]

Portadas Elle Mayo 2017

Portadas Elle Mayo 2017

Ahora es el momento de….

Anna Geislerova de República Checa.

(more…)

[galonflinder]

Les vicissitudes d'un lecteur.

Il y a des moments où tu veux lire, absolument lire. Parce que tu es dans une certaine période, une certaine ambiance qui te donne envie de replonger dans un genre littéraire, ou simplement un livre en particulier. Comme un sentiment de douce familiarité qu'il te faut subitement retrouver.

Je relisais donc encore une fois le premier tome de Altered Carbon de Richard Morgan, surtout parce que j'avais enfin réussi à mettre la main sur les deux tomes suivants et qu'ils n'avaient malheureusement pas fait long.

Et là, après 100 pages, en pleine intrigue, je fais un saut dans une librairie où j'ai l'habitude de jeter un oeil sur le présentoir des nouveautés et, si cela ne donne rien, un autre œil à l'étage réservé à mon auteur préféré depuis longtemps: Arturo Pérez-Reverte.

C'est une habitude. J'aime tellement cet auteur que je ne peux m'empêcher d'acquérir sans réfléchir tout ce qu'il écrit. J'ai même des livres de lui encore non traduits, juste parce que je ne pouvais pas me résoudre à ne jamais avoir une version française. Il me les fallait, quitte à ça qu'un jour j'apprene suffisamment d'espagnol pour pouvoir les lire.

Bref, donc. Ce jour là, j'ai jeté un œil vaguement attentif aux nouveautés, n'espérant pas grand chose. De toute façon, j'étais déjà bien re-plongé dans la verve fantastique de Richard Morgan. Mais oh ! surprise, voilà le nom d'Arturo Pérez-Reverte en lettres d'or sur une couverture inconnue...

Exit donc (pour le moment) Richard Morgan, avant même que je n'aie le temps de réfléchir je ressortais de cette librairie avec Eva, deuxième tome d'une nouvelle série de mon auteur adoré.

Je laisse donc Takeshi Kovacs en plein début d'enquête pour rejoindre Falcó et Eva dans une nouvelle histoire d'espionnage en pleine guerre civile espagnole.

Je mets temporairement de côté la science-fiction, le cyber-punk, pour le roman historique d'espionnage. Je retrouve temporairement mon amour de jeunesse.

[thenotsobad-thebad-andtheugly]

Apache blood (1975)

[mrs-pennylane]

Fanfiction: Ever Present Past - Niko Kovac (Chapter 10)

Author’s note: yeah, I’m alive lol

yeah, the story is alive as well. Sorry for the loooooooong hiatus and I’m sorry for playing with your heart but here it’s a new chapter!

Any typos are my fault and my fault only! Full work can be found here.

Chapter 10

Eva was stretching her arms while sat in bed next to Niko, who was checking his phone. Her shoulders were hurting and she was feeling strangely tired. They had just finished packing his suit and a few stuffs to spend his next day in Russia, and while they were doing that, Eva couldn't stop thinking about the last message David sent her: “I really really miss you and I'd love to hear your voice again. Can I call you sometime?”. She didn’t know if she should tell Niko that or just let it be. “I talked to Katarina and Lara…” Niko began talking and Eva looked at him. “…and I think we are going to NY this Christmas!” “Ahh, great!” Eva exclaimed. Well, now she would have to tell him about David since she was going to visit the guy’s son, so it’s better to talk about this before they even put their feet in USA. “I gotta tell you something.” “Shoot.” “Remember I told you about that ex-boyfriend who married another woman?” “The idiot who trade you for another woman?” “Yeah, him.” “What’s the matter?” “He contacted me on facebook.” As soon as Eva said that, Niko’s expression changed completely. He became serious, his eyebrows arched. “And”, Eva continued. “You know, I’ve got a good relationship with his son, Peter, in fact I’m his godmother.” “So it means you’re going to his house when we go to New York.” Niko completed her whole speech for her. “Yes, exactly.” She answered expectantly. “And you want me to be okay with that?” “It would be good, you know.” “But I’m not.” Niko said dryly. “I know this guy only talked to you because he’s probably single and wants you.” “Look, he’s single indeed. His marriage didn’t work out and yes, I know he contacted me only because he sees an opportunity right now. However, let’s just remember I’m in love with you?” “I knew it! I told you he didn’t marry for love but for convenience, now he’s thinking maybe he has a chance with you.” “It doesn’t matter what he thinks, Niko, I’m only going to visit my godson.” “It matters to me.” Eva looked at him in disbelief. “Are you playing the jealous boyfriend? I don’t remember you being jealous.” “I am jealous and I’m not comfortable with this situation.” “Come on Niko, I’m the first one to be bothered by the whole thing! I’m always everybody’s second choice when their first doesn’t work out!” “Are you referring to me as well?” Niko raised his voice a little. “Niko, if you raise your voice again…” Eva had a steady voice. “I’m going to murder you. Yes, I’m referring to everybody who has ever had the chance to date me.” “You know what you are saying is completely bullshit, don’t you?!” “Oh yeah? Prove me wrong.” “I didn’t run after you, Eva. It happened again when I was single but I’ve been single for 2 years. If you were my ‘second choice’, I would have run after you in USA to win your heart but noooo, I didn’t. Gosh, sometimes you say some things about yourself that are awful.” Eva lost the argument, she knew it. As much as she wanted to keep arguing, she decided to stay quiet and remained like that while Niko looked at her, questioningly. “Now you won’t say a thing, huh?” Niko dared her but she remained silent since she couldn’t defend herself. “I keep my opinion: I’m jealous and I don’t want you near that guy… but it’s your choice, your godson.” “Will you be angry with me if I go and see my godson? Come on, it’s a child.” She pleaded. “I’m not going to get angry with you but I’m not going to be happy about it. I’m not your boss or your owner, Eva but I do feel uncomfortable about it, so the only thing I can do is understand you.” “I’m not used to see you this jealous.” Eva crawled to him and kissed his lips. “I thought you knew how much I’m crazy about you.” “Of course I’m jealous.” Niko grabbed her waist and kissed her back, biting her lower lip. “I swear if I meet him, I’m going to kiss you very hard in front of him so he can see what he lost.” “Wow, I kinda like you jealous.” Eva whispered against his lips and kissed him again. “And I like kissing you so you can kiss me in front of David anytime.” “Ok, so I’ll do it then.” Niko chuckled and kissed her cheek. “I have to sleep, come here lay down with me.” Eva snuggled on his arms and pulled the blankets to cover them. “I could spend a lifetime with you like this.” Niko whispered looking directly in her eyes. “Kissing you…” Niko caressed her hair slowly. “Hugging you…” He kissed the top of her head, smelling her hair. Then, much to Niko’s disappointment, Eva’s phone started to ring. “Wait a second…” she whispered. “Ahhh come on, let it ring. It’s Sunday night!” he protested, holding her by the hand. “Let me see who it is…” Eva checked the phone’s screen and it was her boss. “It’s my boss, Niko.” “Let it ring, please…” he pleaded one last time but Eva ignored him, answering the phone. “Good night, sir.” Niko huffed and turned to the other side. “Yeah, I’m free to talk.” At the end of her conversation with her boss, Eva breathed heavily in frustration: he wanted her at the office very early in the morning to give her reports on her research about the case. He had made her stay until late on Friday and he called her too on Saturday, now he was calling her on a Sunday night. “Niko…” Eva called him. “I’m not going to interfere with how you work but don’t you think Sunday is that day to at least rest a bit?” he turned around to face her again. “Ah, Niko… You see, I’m not an actual lawyer here in Germany.” “I don’t understand.” He asked, his forehead furrowed. “I’m an international lawyer here, I do help building the cases when it’s something concerning US law but I didn’t take the state’s exam. I was working with business contracts before and it was a lot easier and less work but I guess my boss had other plans.” “Can’t you just ask him to have your weekends off?” “It’s not that easy… I feel like…. I don’t know how to say it but I feel like I’m treated less, you know? Because I’m not a German trained lawyer. So I don’t even have the courage to contest anything, let alone ask to work less. The only thing I asked was a salary increase and it was partially granted.” “I understand. Do you feel happy with your work?” “Honestly? No.” Eva shrugged uncomfortably. Niko caressed her arm, encouraging her to talk. “Ah, I don’t want to spill all over you my problems concerning my choices.” “If you don’t talk to me, who are you going to talk to, then?” Eva breathed heavily. “I thought that… I thought that it would be less hard here. I have a master’s degree in German Law and in Human Rights, I thought that maybe I would have a chance to have a good job but I ended up working in the same shit that almost got me killed, working for more hours and getting paid less. If I think I should have stayed in US? Yes, I do. I worked at Wall Street, Niko. I was getting filthy rich but things were getting out of control in my personal life.” Eva started to feel a tear appearing on the corner of her eyes. “I sound confusing, don’t I?” “Why don’t you go from the beginning, huh? Tell me everything that bothers you.” “Ok… Ahhh” she started searching her memory for the exact point where shit started to happen to her. “I’ve been always a bit of a workaholic but when I got my position at the Barnes & Anderson Office, I would literally spend nights and nights there working. I was extremely competitive and I was great, to be honest. As of result, I ended up becoming one of their associates and that made get into Manhattan’s high society and all of that. I knew something was starting to happen to me… psychologically, but I just refrained and kept going until I was attacked. Suddenly everything started to fall down on my shoulders. I was diagnosed with PTSD and GAD, you know, the generalized anxiety disorder. I’m sorry, I don’t know why…” “Keep going, love. I wanna hear.” Niko said. “Uhhh, I did some therapy and I was feeling a little better. That’s was when I decided to come back to Germany, do something else, take care of myself a bit but it took me a year to actually do it and it was after my father felt sick. So here I am, unsatisfied with my current job and feeling like I am about to lose control again.” Eva was feeling slightly ashamed and uncomfortable for opening up to him like that. She felt exposed and fragile for a minute before Niko hugged her tightly. It was so unexpected that she didn’t have a proper reaction and after a few seconds she hugged him back. “You can always count on me to talk about your problems. What I think you should do is: take your time to think about what makes you happy. I’m here to support you if you decide to quit your job and look for something else, really. If you want to move to Croatia or anywhere else, work with something else… There’s no problem. I’ll support you no matter what you choose and I know we’ll both make it work.” Now it was Eva’s turn to hug him tightly, kissing his cheek. Niko kissed her cheek as well and cuddled her. The natural smell of him – of Niko –, his warmness and his soothing words made her calm and comfortable enough to sleep peacefully that night. When she woke up on the next day, she was disappointed to find the space beside her empty. She rubbed her eyes and checked her watch: 6 am. She got up and went to Lara’s bedroom to wake her up, who was shrunken under her sheets. “Good morning.” Eva murmured to Lara, who blinked a few times and tried to sleep again. “No, no, you have to go to school.” “Can I stay, please? I won’t tell dad.” She begged. “You know I can’t do that, honey. Come on, I can make some pancakes!” Eva tried to cheer her up and it worked a bit. Eva went downstairs to make them some pancakes and while she was cooking, she caught herself thinking about David. She couldn’t just lie to herself saying that he didn’t bother her in some way and that she didn’t feel hurt about whatever happened between them. Yes, she accepted letting him go to take care of his son. Yes, it was a dumb move. No, she didn’t want him back. But it kinda hurt her in the wrong way: Niko was right, he was only talking to her because his marriage was over. A second choice, someone to run when nothing else worked. “Are you going to let it burn?” Eva heard Lara’s voice and snapped back to reality. She turned off the stove quickly. “I’m sorry, I was distracted.” Eva apologized. “No problem, let me help you?” Lara offered. “There’s no need. Are your stuff in order for school?” “Yes, I only need to have breakfast and get dressed.” When Lara was ready, Eva took her to school and went to the office. The day was boring and she almost prayed for it to end so she could spend time with Lara. Eva had planned to take her to play bowling. “So, let me ask you this…” Lara started saying while they were entering the bowling center. “You and my father dated when you two were in your twenties.” “”Umm, yup.” Eva agreed. “He never mentioned your name…” Lara threw the ball, hitting three pins. “Of course he didn’t…” Eva started, throwing the ball. “He was married to your mother. It would sound strange to even mention my name next to her.” “Yeah, you’re right…” Lara assented. “Speaking of which, how was it to you?” The divorce.” Eva watched Lara throw the ball for the second time, missing the pins. Hmm, she got lucky on the first time, Eva thought to herself. “It’s a bit difficult. I know something strange was happening to them, I just didn’t know exactly what. I still can’t understand what happened.” “Well, sometimes things go wrong and it’s better to end it before everything gets worse. Relationships are quite difficult, ya know. I saw my mom and dad getting divorced when I was 22 years old and I only understood it years later. You can love someone very much but it’s not enough to sustain a life together. I’m sure your father loved your mother very much.” “That doesn’t bother you?” “What?” “The years my father spent with my mom.” Eva grabbed one of the balls, a dark green one, and threw it, hitting all of the pins. Strike! She hadn’t thought about it, to be honest. She wasn’t particularly threatened by Katarina, not at all, especially since they weren’t together anymore had 2 years. “No, it doesn’t. His past doesn’t bother me and if he hadn’t fell in love with your mother, you wouldn’t be here with me today.” Lara smiled and threw another ball, hitting one pin. “My father told me about you when I came back from vacation. He was happy and saying how much he wanted us to meet. Of course, I thought I was going to hate you.” “But you didn’t. Or you did and you’re planning to kill me?” “I didn’t.” Lara answered, laughing softly. “I don’t want and I don’t intend to replace your mother. She’s the one who gave birth to you and I don’t even want to pretend I’m like her, but I want to be someone you like and that you’re comfortable with. I thought it was too early to meet you but…” “I think it was ok to meet you that day. My father has never had a girlfriend since he and my mom split so this is the first time we have someone with us. I like it.” Eva smiled, heart-warmed. She stayed quiet a moment, holding her ball and aiming where she was going to throw. “So, how about you?” She cleared her throat. “Do you have any boyfriend at school?” Lara immediately became shy and her cheeks turned red. “Umm, there is a boy…” she began. “We just kissed once, you know, but he’s so cute!” Eva smiled at Lara’s enthusiasm. “Is he from your classroom?” “No, he’s a little bit older.” “Does your father know about him?” “No!” Lara answered, panicking. “Daddy can’t know about it, ahhh.” “And why is that? He doesn’t approve?” “Dad says I’ll only be able to date anyone when I turn 30 years old.” “Nonsense!” Eva laughed. “My father used to say the exact same thing to me but when I started dating your father around my 20s, he loved the idea.” “Nah, I bet my father will honor his words, I’m his only child and he’s kinda jealous.” “I’m sure when you get to a certain age, your dad won’t be able to stop you from dating. Relax, all fathers say that.” Eva and Lara spent the rest of the night playing bowling and eating hot dogs. Being there with Lara, having a good night playing bowling like she used to do in NY made her anxious to take her and Niko to her favorite restaurants in NY, to where she used to have fun. They arrived home and Lara gave her a good night hug. Eva slept alone on that big bed and felt a little bit sad for not having Niko there sleeping with her. -------------------------

In the beginning of the week of Niko’s birthday, Eva was worried about what she was going to do for him. Take him out for dinner? Buy something nice? Throw a surprise party? She had been so much time away from him that she didn’t know anymore what he liked and what he didn’t. Then she decided to call Robert and see if he had any ideas but the call went to voicemail. “Shit.” Eva whispered when she heard a woman’s voice telling her to leave a message. “What am I going to do??” By midday, she went to have lunch still without any good ideas of what would please Niko. She couldn’t remember if he liked surprise parties and Robert wouldn’t answer his phone. “What is bothering you so much?” Paula was looking at her questioningly across the table. “Niko’s birthday. I don’t know what I’m going to do for him…” Eva complained. “You could make him a surprise in bed…” Paula winked and Eva snorted feeling a tad ashamed. “I don’t need a special date to do something special.” Eva joked remembering the night before.

“Fuck.” Niko moaned, squeezing her butt. “You look damn sexy in those stockings.”

“That’s what you like?” she teased. In return, she received a hard spank on the left side of her butt. “Ah god.”, she moaned in pleasure, feeling her skin burning.

Eva coughed and smiled ashamed. Paula gave her a surprised look and changed the tone of the conversation. “You could maybe buy him a nice present and cook dinner, something he loves?” she suggested. Eva stopped to think for a minute that it was actually a good idea. She spent her lunch time thinking the dishes she knew he liked and what type of present could she give him but by the time the dawn arouse, she started to get desperate again. As if he prays were answered, her phone rang and Robert’s name appeared on the screen. “Hey Robbie!” “Hello Eva, how is everything going? I saw you called me but I’m sorry I couldn’t call you back earlier. I actually wanted to talk to you anyway so I’m glad you called.” “Please tell me we are going to talk about Niko’s birthday.” “Yes, we are. I’m planning a surprise party for him at Valy’s and of course I wanted you there.” “On Wednesday?” “Yeah… Is it bad for you?” Eva was going to miss a day of work again and she knew it was getting too much. She was so fucking unhappy with her work that she was actually not diving a damn, so she told Robert it was okay for her and they decided that she would arrive early in Croatia to help them prepare everything. After Robert’s call, Eva went back to work and busied herself with her reports. She ended up losing track of time and only realized how late it was when she saw and upcoming call from Niko. “Hey, love.” She answered. “Are you still at work?” his voice sounded worried. “Yes, I was doing my reports and I just lost track of time.” “I was worried because you didn’t call or anything.” “I’m so sorry, Niko. What time is it?” “It’s nearly 11pm.” “Shit” Eva whispered. “Do you want me to pick you up?” “There’s no need, my car is here.” “Ok. Please, be careful and drive safely. I’ll be waiting for you.” Eva arrived at his house almost an hour later and Niko was still awake waiting for her with a hot cup of tea. “Oh my God, you should have gone to sleep.” She said as soon as he greeted her by the door. He gave her a warm kiss on the lips. “Now I can sleep since you’re safe. I was worried because it’s too late and dangerous.” “The building has security…” “Still… Here, a cup of tea to warm your body.” He gave her the cup while he gathered her suitcase. Eva took off her jacket and sat down at the couch. She sipped her tea and hummed in pleasure. “Are you like that after the marriage?” she joked. “Are you going to marry me?” Niko joked back and Eva snorted. “Perhaps.” “Then yes, I am like that after the marriage.” “You are just saying that to please me.” “Nope, ask Katarina. I like to be a good husband especially now that the woman I wish to take as my wife is a devoted lawyer.” Eva laughed and playfully punched his chest. Niko grabbed her hand softly and held her gaze so intensely she blushed. They kept looking at each other without breaking the contact for at least one minute until Niko smiled a bit. “Relax, Eva. I’m not going to ask you to marry me today.” Eva laughed and took another sip of her tea. “I’m not scared of marrying you.” “I know you’re not.” Niko caressed her arm gently. “Shall we get to sleep?” Eva finished her tea and they both went to sleep. Niko adjusted her to his body so he was comfortably spooning her. It didn’t take her too long to drift off. Before she fell completely asleep, she thought about possibly marrying Niko. The idea itself didn’t scare her at all but she was afraid of doing it too soon. She knew pretty well that if it wasn’t for her insecurity, he would have proposed it already because in his head, this was a continuation of their previous relationship. In her head, this was just a new beginning, hardly a continuation. She had changed very much and she was afraid that Niko had changed so much that maybe he wasn’t the same she had fallen in love before, or maybe that she had changed so much. She was willing to cope with his differences and his new habits or new ideas but not as a marriage. She also needed time to adjust to his qualities and defects (?) again before they thought about putting a ring in their fingers. Maybe Niko knew that and he was just paying to see where they would go or maybe he wasn’t noticing that. Either way, he decided to respect her and she was thankful for that.

----------------------------- On November 15th, Eva took the plane to Croatia in the early hours of the morning. She had told Niko she was going to work until late so that’s why she wasn’t able to be with him on his birthday and he got quite mad at her and left to Croatia one day before his birthday, so her plan was going pretty well. Robbie told her that he and Niko had planned to have a cozy dinner at Vally’s for his birthday and when Niko arrived, they would be there. Robbie also told her that Niko had called and said he was hurt because she wasn’t even caring about his birthday The plan was for her to arrive in Croatia and go straight to Robert’s house, so they could leave to the restaurant from there. Eva helped Robert pick up what kind of food they were going to serve, Niko’s favorite wine and his cake, which had a picture of his face – Robert’s idea – and she found it hilarious. Robert set the appointment for 7pm to the guests and 8pm to Niko, so they had plenty of time to arrange how they were going to surprise him. Between the guests, Eva saw someone she thought it was very familiar to her and approached carefully. “Bosko Balaban?” she asked to the man, who turned to her. He kept looking at her for a few seconds before his face lighted in a smile. “Eva Strauss?” he asked and she nodded. “Are you kidding me? Long time no see!” they hugged each other smiling. “Yes, it has been a long time indeed. How are you doing, Bosko?” “I’m great and you? God, time made you even more gorgeous!” he complimented. “Thank you.” She laughed. “I’m great as well.” “Are you and Niko…?” “Yes, exactly.” She grinned, confirming. “Well, that’s what I call destiny, huh? He was always very crazy about you, y’know. Always talking about you.” “I’ve heard things haven’t changed nowadays.” She joked remembering what Davor had said to her. “He’s coming!” Robert interrupted them and grabbed Eva to stand beside him near the entrance. When Niko came into the restaurant, they all screamed “happy birthday!” together. He put his hand on his face, laughing and nodding his head as if saying “unbelievable”. Niko looked at her smiling and whispered in her ear “And I thought you weren’t giving a damn… thank you.” She smiled back and whispered to him “It was Robert’s idea… but I was going to do something for you too.”. Niko kissed her mouth and heard people cheering them, and immediately Eva became shy, hiding her face on his shoulder. “Robbie, Robbie.” Niko said, separating from Eva’s embrace. “Always my beloved baby brother.” And he gave him a kiss on the cheek followed by a tight hug. Eva absolutely loved the way they were close and how much they loved each other. Niko went on to greet everyone at the party while Eva started eating finger foods and getting a glass of wine. The party was going very well until she heard a woman’s voice talking to the receptionist. “My name is Cecilia, I came for Niko Kovac.” Eva heard the woman saying and felt her blood getting hot. She noticed Niko saw Cecilia and was serious heading towards her but Eva was faster and grabbed Niko’s arm. “Let me talk to her, Niko.” Eva said. Cecilia looked at them and shouted. “Ahhh Niko, my love!” Was she drunk? She sounded drunk. “I’ll talk to her.” Niko said and tried to get away but Eva gripped his arm even harder. “No, I’ll do it.” And she walked towards Cecilia, who was looking questioningly at Niko stand there looking livid. He was beyond pissed, he was fucking angry at Cecilia for not respecting him and his relationship. For not respecting Eva. And then he was angry because he knew Eva was playing cool so she wouldn’t show how much that made her pissed. Niko was just praying that his night didn’t end in a fight.

[real-madrid-wags]

2018 BY REAL MADRID WAGS

We say “goodbye” to 3 families and 1 couple.

- Mateo Kovacic and Izabel Andrijanic. Ruben played for Real Madrid three years. He left us and joined Chelsea for loan. We have to say goodbye his beautiful wife Izabel and I hope they come back soon. 

- Cristiano Ronaldo and Georgina Rodriguez. It was the worst farewell of last summer. Cristiano left us after 9 years. He joined Juventus. We have to say goodbye to his beautiful family: Georgina, Cristiano Junior, Mateo, Eva and Alana. 

- Zinedine Zidane and Veronique Zidane. It was sad news for me. Zizou left Real Madrid after two successful years. He left us together with his beautiful family. 

- Theo Hernandez and Adriana Pozueco. After one year Theo left Real Madrid and joined Real Sociedad for loan. We say goodbye to him and his girlfirend Adriana. 

[uneminuteparseconde]

Des concerts à Paris et autour

Juin 08. Necronomidol – Théâtre Claude Lévi-Strauss|Quai Branly (gratuit) 08. Chocolat + The Soap Opera + Jaromil Sabor + Valderamas + Carambolage – Supersonic (gratuit avant 23h) 08. Stuart Moxham – Planète Mars 08. Monolithe noir + Colin Johnco – Olympic café 08. Robert Henke & Marko Nikodijevic : "From within" (fest. ManiFeste) – Cité de la musique|Philharmonie 08. Nightwatchers + Hinin + Shock + Glam Skanks (fest. Ville maudite) – Gare XP 08. Michael Gendreau + Francisco Meirino – église Saint-Merry 08. Bracco + Jessica 93 + Jardin – La Station 08. Julien Ribeill & Jacques Perconte – Ciné 104 (Pantin) 08. Molly Nilsson – Badaboum ||COMPLET|| 09. Trisomie 21 + Delacave – La Maroquinerie 09. Waxahatchee – Espace B ||ANNULÉ|| 09.  Waxahatchee + Courtney Barnett – Bataclan 09. The Driver + Renart + Le Cabaret contemporain + "In C" de Terry Riley + Le Comte + Arandel (dj) + Dudmode + Ambeyance (dj) + Clément Bazin (dj) – La Station 09. Woodwork + Sueurs froides + Marée noire + Snob (fest. Ville maudite) – Jardin d'Alice (Montreuil) 09. Muro + Tu brüles mon esprit + TV Crime + Zone infinie (fest. Ville maudite) – Olympic café 09. Charlene Darling + Droit divin + Hamlet Machine + Âmes sanglantes – Instants chavirés (Montreuil) 09. Helena Hauff + Illnurse + Parfait + Tafkamp + Thomas P. Heckmann – tba 09 ou 10. Oktober Lieber... (La Dynamicale Estivale) – Parc Jean-Moulin Les Guilands (Bagnolet) (gratuit) 10. Project Youth + Taulard + Sordide + Robot Orchestra + Rose Mercie + Sauna Youth (fest. Ville maudite) – Le Cri du singe (Montreuil) 11. Preoccupations + Moaning – La Maroquinerie 11. The Dead C – Instants chavirés (Montreuil) 12. Damo Suzuki's Network – Espace B 12. Thom York – L'Olympia 13. David Fenech – Chair de poule (gratuit) 13. L7 – La Cigale 13. Plomb + Neue Kinder Von Damals + Degat Deso – La Pointe Lafayette 13. Marietta + Canari – Mains d'oeuvre (Saint-Ouen) 13. Piotr Kurek + DSR Lines + Claire Serres – La Marbrerie (Montreuil) 14. Ty Segall & The Freedom Band + Mike Donovan – Bataclan 14. Zombie Zombie – Forum des images 14. Troum + Flint Glass + Maninkari – Instants chavirés (Montreuil) 15. Bernard Grancher + Infecticide + Les Trucs – Centre Barbara-FGO 15. Varsovie + Carpet Burns + Marécage – Supersonic (gratuit avant 23h) 15. Tapan + Kris Baha + Philip Berg + Pepe Del Noche + I-F + Identified Patient b2b Job Sifre + Klankman + Mark Knekelhuis + Beige + Theorama + Belec + Chris Marechal (fest. Positive Education) – La Station 15. Gâtechien + Jordan + Merakhaazan – Olympic café 15. Anne-James Chaton & Andy Moor : "Heretics" + Midget – Instants chavirés (Montreuil) 15. Blawan + Laval (Electric Rescue & Kmyle) – Rex Club 15/16. Ryoji Ikeda : "Datamatics" – Centre Pompidou 16. Ryoji Ikeda : "Formula" – Centre Pompidou 16. Ryoji Ikeda : "c4i" – Centre Pompidou 16. Vladimir Ivkovic + Die Wilde Jagd + Sacha Mambo + Abschaum + PAM + Bufiman + Krikor + Zozo + Merel + Jacques Satre + Marcorosso + Emilio + Helione + Dress Rehearsals (fest. Positive Education) – La Station 16. Deeat Palace + Minute de S + Pierre Pierre Pierre – La Pointe Lafayette 16. Jérôme Noetinger : « Noetinger » de Stefano Canapa + Michalis Moschoutis : « Parallaxe » du collectif Nominoë + BJ Nilsen : « Yujiapu » de Karl Lemieux (Scratch Expanded) – Les Voûtes 16. Carl Craig + Moodyman + Octave One + Omar S + Stacey Pullen + Kyle Hall + Bambounou + Waajeed + Idriss D – Docks Pullman (Saint-Denis) 16. Vitalic (fest. Bains numériques) – Lac d'Enghien-lès-Bains (gratuit) 16/17. Confipop + Colt + Eat Rabbit + Froe Char + Golden Q + Rallye mondain + René Couteau + Subskan + Tapetronic + Wankers United + Wopr Maze... (fest. Merguez électroniques) – Les Mûrs à pêches (Montreuil) 17. Animal Collective – Le Trianon 18. E + Toro + Euro Milliard – Espace B 19. Publique + Luxury – Le Klub 19. Mörpheme + Unlogistic + Pour X raisons – La Comedia (Montreuil) 20. Night Night + Krivers – Olympic café 20. Mohamed Lamouri + Blow + This is the Kit + Yan Wagner + Chapelier fou + Chaton + UTO + Tample + Thomas Ospital & Baptiste Lagrave (fest. 36H Saint-Eustache) – église Saint-Eustache (gratuit) 21. Midget + Mathieu Bogaerts (fest. 36H Saint-Eustache) – église Saint-Eustache (gratuit) 21. Turzi & Dr Shonberg + Eva Peel – Centre FGO-Barbara (gratuit) 21. Laurence Wasser + Antilles – bar Ourcq (gratuit) 22. Forever Parot (dj) + Vox Low (dj) + Marietta (dj) – La Recyclerie 22. Pointe Lumière + Didier Wampas & Benjamin Sportès (dj) (fest. Sans les mains) – Bar Gallia (Pantin) (gratuit) 22. Modern Life Is War + Cro Mags – Petit Bain 22. Cockpit + Bisou de Saddam + La Secte du futur – Gibus 23. Badbad – Penny Lane Record Store (gratuit) 23. Meryll Ampe + Poborsk + Mika Oki + Sébastien Roux... (fest. Lion noir) – Faculté de chirurgie dentaire (Montrouge) (gratuit) 23. Tomoko Sauvage + Felicia Atkinson – piscine Edouard-Herriot (Noisy-le-Sec) (gratuit) 23. Crack Cloud – Supersonic (gratuit) 23. Blackmail (dj) + C.A.R. (fest. Sans les mains) – Trabendo (gratuit) 23. Liz Lamere, Dante Vega Lamere & Christophe + Pascal Comelade + Chinese Army + Marie Môôr & The Other Colors + Tristesse contemporaine + Alice Botté + Marc Hurtado + Vomir + Pest Modern + Hiv+ + Jac Berrocal, David Fenech é Vincetn Epplay + Christophe Van Huffel + Turzi feat. Dee Gage + Rachid Taha + Yan Péchin + Imed Alibi + My Great Blue Cadillac + Fishbach + Olivier Brisson + Jesse Malin (fest. d'avant-séance : hommage à Alan Vega) – ancien cinéma L'Entrepôt 23. Seabuckthorn + Eric Chenaux & Eloïse Decazes – Le Zorba (sur résa) 23. Errorsmith + Rezzett + Djrum + Chien ardent + Pépe + Realitycheck + U-Unity – La Machine 25. Nine Inch Nails – Olympia ||COMPLET|| 26. Tomoko Sauvage + Andrew Pekler – Jeu de Paume (gratuit) 26. Schoolbusdriver + Revok + Computerstaat – Espace B 27. The Jesus & Mary Chain – Le Trianon 27. Deaf Kids + Bracco + Noyades – Instants chavirés (Montreuil) 27. La Colonie de vacances – La Station 28. Golden Oriole + Antoine Chessex + Brutal Blues – Instants chavirés (Montreuil) 28. La Colonie de vacances – La Station ||COMPLET|| 29. Cocaine Piss + SHIT + Sordid Ship + Harassment – Le Gibus 29. Wolves in the Throne Room – Petit Bain 29. Punish Yourself + TRK_X + Virile + F/cken Chipotle + Front de crypte + Thérapie club + Nana Benamer – La Station 29. Fred P. aka Black Jazz Consortium + Tin Man + Kay Alce b2b Patrick Gibin + Skee Mask (Macki Music fest.) – parc de la mairie (Carrières/Seine) 30. A Deep Groove + Antal + Golden Dawn Archestra + Blake Baxter + Muddy Monk + Saint DX + Toshio Matsuura + Vox Low + Nathy Peluso (Macki Music fest.) – parc de la mairie (Carrières/Seine) 30. Eliott Litrowski (Macki Music fest.) – boat party 30. Echo Collective joue "Amnesiac" de Radiohead (fest. Days Off) – Le Studio|Philharmonie 30. Nils Frahm (fest. Days Off) – Salle Pierre-Boulez|Philharmonie 30. Scratch Massive (dj) + Regina Demina + Char + RAG + Morello + Nasi Fshr – Cabaret sauvage 30. Femme + Stefan Christensen + Dustbreeders Extended – Espace B

Juillet 01. Motor City Drum Ensemble + Josey Rebelle + Cotonete + Lomboy + Ceephax Acid Crew + Kamaal Williams + HDBeenDope + Sentiments (Macki Music fest.) – parc de la mairie (Carrières/Seine) 01. Nick V (Macki Music fest.) – boat party 01. Zaltan (Macki Music fest.) – boat party 01. Renart + Vulcanizadora + NSDOS – Agora|Maison de la radio 03. David Byrne (fest. Days Off) – Salle Pierre-Boulez|Philharmonie 03. Poison Point – Supersonic (gratuit) 04. Usé – Point FMR 04. MGMT (fest. Days Off) – Salle Pierre-Boulez|Philharmonie ||COMPLET|| 05. Brnsrpprs + Brns + Ropoporose (7 ans de Petit-Bain) – Petit Bain 05. Eric Chenaux + Orgue Agnès – Point FMR 05>07. Dominique a + Jeanne Added... (Fnac Live Paris) – parvis de l'Hôtel de ville (gratuit) 06. Trami Nguyen et Laurent Durupt jouent "Piano Phase" de Steve Reich + Bruce Brubaker + Laake + Fabrizio Rat + Murcof & Vanessa Wagner + Tom Rogerson + Grandbrothers (fest. Days Off) – Cité de la musique|Philharmonie 06. Amelie Lens + Daniel Avery + Floating Points + Folamour + Jeff Mills + Laurent Garnier + Kink b2b Gerd Janson + Not Waving + Solomun... (The Peacock Society) – Parc floral (Vincennes) 06. Speedy J + Fjaak – Concrete 06/07. Orchestre tout puissant Marcel Duchamp + Odessey & Oracle + Warum Joe + The Monochrome Set + The Experimental Tropic Blues Band + Sida + Hyperculte + Snapped Ankles + White Heat + Tonnerre + USA Nails + Bracco + Lèche-moi + Brandt + 10LEC6 + Belmont Witch + Pyjamarama + Me Donner + The Absolute Never (La Ferme électrique) – La Ferme du Plateau (Tournan-en-Brie) 07. Sister Iodine (La Ferme électrique) – La Ferme du Plateau (Tournan-en-Brie) 07. Etienne Daho + Tristesse contemporaine (fest. Days Off) – Salle Pierre-Boulez|Philharmonie 07. Richie Hawtin + Tale of Us + Charlotte de Witte + Chloé + Maetrik + Mano Le Tough + Octo Octa + Joy Orbison b2b Kornel Kovacs (The Peacock Society) – Parc floral (Vincennes) 08. Maulwürfe – La Gaîté lyrique 09. Eels – Olympia 10>14. Cité lumière + Bertrand Burgalat + Warum Joe + Le Réveil des tropiques + Palma Rosa + Guili Guili Goulag + Pierre & Bastien + Guerre froide + Oktober Lieber + Ricky Hollywood + Keruda Panter + Stratocastors + Biche... (fest. Restons sérieux) – Supersonic (gratuit) 12. Chelsea Wolfe + Emma Ruth Rundle – Trabendo 13. Ministry + Grave Pleasures – Elysées Montmartre 13. Petra Flurr – Le Klub 14. Papier Tigre + Pyjamarama + Puissant Blaster – Espace B 19>22. The KVB + Structure + First Hate + Giant Swan + Operant + Sneaks + Häxxan + Homoagent + Iron Sight + IV Horsemen + Maenad Veyl + RVG + Make-Overs + UVB 76 + Hand & Leg (Garage MU fest.) – La Station 20. Kangding Ray + Stanislav Tolkachev + Electric Rescue – Rex Club 21. Veil of Light – Supersonic (gratuit) 24. Dirty Fences – Supersonic (gratuit)

Août 20. Front Line Assembly + Die Krupps – La Machine 24. Die Antwood + Carpenter Brut + Dirty Projectors + Parcels... (fest. Rock-en-Seine) – Domaine de Saint-Cloud 26. Jessica 93 + Idles + The Black Angels + Bonobo + Justice... (fest. Rock-en-Seine) – Domaine de Saint-Cloud

Septembre 01. Lilthics – Espace B 01. Ariel Pink + Vox Low + Cut Worms + Volage + TH da Freak (Paris Inter. Fest. of Psychedelic Music) – La Machine 02/03. Molly Nilsson + Petit Fantôme + Dead Sea + Faux Real + Saint DX... (Paris Inter. Fest. of Psychedelic Music) – tba 04. Thee Oh Sees +  Male Gaze + Prettiest Eyes (Paris Inter. Fest. of Psychedelic Music) – La Cigale 05. Feist – L'Olympia 07. Conflict + Humandogfood + Social Experiment – Le Gibus 14. Qual – Supersonic 20. The Brian Jonestown Massacre – La Cigale 21. Crisis + Plomb – Petit Bain   22. The Wedding Present – Point FMR 22. Atonalist feat. Gavin Friday + Machinalis Tarentulae + Arco Trauma – Petit Bain 22. Paula Temple + LSD + Tommy FourSeven... (Dream Nation fest.) – Docks de Paris (Aubervilliers) 23. Spiritualized – Cabaret sauvage 26. Sleaford Mods + Consumer Electronics – Le Trianon 27. Part Chimp – Espace B 29. Terry Riley & Gyan Riley – La Maroquinerie

Octobre 04. Oiseaux-Tempête, Mondkopf & G. W. Sok + Princess Thailand – Centre Barbara-FGO 04. Ballaké Sissoko & Vincent Segal – La Seine musicale (Boulogne-Billancourt) 12. Les Négresses vertes – Cabaret sauvage 12. Thorofon + Control + Te/DIS – Les Voûtes 20. Tallinn Chamber Orchestra : Fratres, Cantus in memoriam Benjamin Britten, Adam's Lament, Salve Regina et Te Deum d'Arvo Pärt – Salle Pierre-Boulez|Philharmonie 20. Les Tétines noires – Petit Bain 22. Dead Meadow – Petit Bain 24. Motorama – Petit Bain 26. Jon Hopkins – Trianon 27. Killing Joke – Cabaret sauvage

Novembre 01>03. Bon Iver + Fever Ray + Mac DeMarco + Blood Orange... (Pitchfork Music fest.) – Grande Halle de La Villette 02. Emma Ruth Rundle – Petit Bain 04. Peaches Christ Superstar – Cité de la musique|Philharmonie 05. Colin Stetson – Café de la danse 08. Cold Cave – Petit Bain 13. Hot Snakes – Point FMR 16. Parquet Courts – Elysées Montmartre 18. Ensemble Links : « Drumming » de Steve Reich – Cité de la musique|Philharmonie 21. The Breeders – Le Trianon 22. Scout Niblett – Petit Bain 23. Michael Nyman : "War Work: 8 Songs with Film" – Salle Pleyel 23. Ennio Morricone – Bercy Arena 27. Mudhoney – Trabendo 28. Adult – Petit Bain

Décembre 01. Deux boules vanille (fest. Marathon!) – La Gaîté lyrique 06. The KVB – Badaboum 09/10. Moriarty – Cité de la musique|Philharmonie 15. Gaspar Claus – Cité de la musique|Philharmonie 18. Drab Majesty – Point FMR

2019

Avril 14. Arnaud Rebotini joue la BO de "120 Battements par minute" – Cité de la musique|Philharmonie

Mai 17. Philip Glass : Études pour piano – Salle Pierre-Boulez|Philharmonie 18. Bruce Brubaker & Max Cooper : Glasstronica – Cité de la musique|Philharmonie

Juin 26. Magma – Salle Pierre-Boulez|Philharmonie

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